A Forced Future

I can feel it: gnawing in my chest
I can hear it: shrieking in my head
I can see it: feeding on my flesh
(and) I am broken, fatigued and in need of rest
(but) I am lost, trapped and resigned in a state of constant stress
Forced toΒ obsess over life’s upcoming tests.
In the choice between duty and life I choose to live
But it is already too late, I have nothing left to give.

@Alexander Berg Mattsson, 2012


15 thoughts on “A Forced Future

  1. Pete Armetta says:

    I’m sure you’ve LOTS left to give. Shoot, you give us your words everyday, and that has a lot of value. Nicely put here TPG- I’m a sucker for the heart wrenching. πŸ™‚ Yes, a rest is often cathartic.

    1. thepoeticgoblin says:

      I was rushing towards a bad professional decision, but for my own sake I decided to spent a summer as a writer/unemployed. It may hurt financially, but it soothed my soul. Now I feel like I might have some more words to give, so thank you Pete πŸ™‚

      1. Pete Armetta says:

        Glad you think so. I’ve spent quite a bit of time as an unemployed writer myself and it’s a challenge to live in deprivation and stay focused (and happy and balanced). The writer’s life is a lonely one. Glad you “might” have some more words to give haha I’m sure you do! Keep the faith brother.

  2. Ben Naga says:

    “In the choice between duty and life I choose to live”
    This line got me thinking of Bradley Manning, and what deciding to follow your (moral) duty rather than having an easy (or even extending) life can mean. Homage. Sorry. This is probably a million miles away from your poem, but then that’s poetry for you. πŸ˜€

    1. thepoeticgoblin says:

      Exactly! Poetry is written to awoke emotions or to start a train of thought. I didn’t have your example in mind, but I can definitely see the resemblance! Glad to “see” you around Goblinville again πŸ™‚

  3. lscotthoughts says:

    Wonderfully written, Alex, and I agree with Pete; I’m sure you have “lots” to give and I’m glad “life” was chosen…although, I’m not sure if this is fiction or reality, but it’s great either way! πŸ™‚

  4. bipolarmuse says:

    Very deep thoughts here TPG. I love these type of poems you write because it makes me sit back and think in terms of my own life. You indeed have much more to give.
    Great write my friend!

  5. jhasmoments says:

    Your pieces are always wonderful and so touching.
    You have lots to “give”!! Every time you write…. thoughts….. you give πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ (smile)
    I absolutely enjoy reading your thoughts. πŸ™‚
    Hope all is good πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

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